Tearing Down My Wall...




This used to be a portion of my wall in my dorm, i call this part, the "feelings"... as of february 1, my so-called wall of emotions is nothing but a boulder with patches of scraped paint...

As most of them know, im a very secretive person... true, i have a hard time expressing myself... my sketches used to be my output. I draw when i feel sad, depressed or angry... I sketch when something bad happens... My Gallery reflects anger and fear. And lately, i've been feeling down... My friends would notice and ask why i look so depressed and i'd tell them i don't know why ("idiopathic", as we usually call it, which means "unknown cause"), but the truth is, there is a reason, i don't want to tell anyone because I can't even accept it to myself. It's just wrong.

Back to my wall... Lately, whenever i look at it, it's like im seeing myself full of anger and hatred, it makes me sad, all the bitterness and depression. it brings back bad memories, so I decided to remove all my sketches... It's weird, when i was removing it, i felt sad... it's like im erasing a part of me. I have always loved art since high school, and it became a big part of my life, but i felt like it lost all it's meaning...

The most painful part is, out of 13 friends (some of them being my closest) who went to my dorm after i remove my sketches, only 4 of them noticed...

I tore down a part of my personality and only 4 people noticed...

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fritzie blurted out...
9:47 AM


It's amazing how much "mature wisdom" resembles being too tired.

Grabe, this week, i had a hell of a headache! super migraine... why does college have to be so f****ed up, and give you multiple stupid projects?!

it just dont make sense!

And the worst part is, even if they know that you did EVERYTHING to impress them, they still think you don't deserve a good grade!

What is wrong with them?!

Oh well, so much for complaints...

Whatever!
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fritzie blurted out...
1:51 PM


As the problems are new, we must disenthrall ourselves from the past...
(leaving 2006)

Great event this year:






The very much awaited capping and pinning ceremony...
we all worked so hard for it.


Had Fun with:






Family,





Friends,




Old Friends,



New Friends,





More Friends...


Happenings:



booze, food trips and getaways...


Memorable concerts/movies/weather(whatever):




Milenyo, bamboo, One tree hill, Happy feet, and lotsa lotsa coffee... :)


Something New:





My hammie (hamster), gift from a friend.. and my new phone. bought it yesterday! (it matches my nails!) :P

all of these just makes no sense... haha! just wanted to greet everyone! :)


Get your own glitter and more at BlingyBlob.com

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fritzie blurted out...
1:14 PM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

It's not a matter of can or cannot, it's a matter of will or will not, everything is a choice, choose wisely...


A person always have a choice... right or wrong, good or bad, this or that?

For some of us, happiness is the most important thing in life... You must be happy with what you do, with who you are and who your with. But sometimes happiness depends on the people around you. These people live by their own rules... You cannot tell them what to do, what to feel or what not to feel... We have no control over them... Therefore, we have no control over our own happiness either... What if, for us to be happy, we could be hurting the people we love? Think again... Can you still be happy, knowing that you got what we want by hurting someone close to us? Can you live happy, knowing that you've stolen these happiness from someone very dear to you... Can you stay happy?

Now you have a choice... yours or theirs?

If you would sacrifice your own happiness for them, you're a hypocrite... but if you pursue your own happiness, then you're selfish...

Still, you have a choice... but it takes guts and courage to decide... You have to think things over and over... In every decision you make, there are consequences... consequences that you might be dealing with for the rest of your life... Are you ready for it? or would you rather live peacefully?

And the choices continue...

Think! One decision leads to another choice... and one mistake may affect your whole Life, and the Lives of those around you.

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fritzie blurted out...
1:44 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006

i'm Sick...

you know how some old people hates going to the doctor, i thought it was really pathetic, i mean, ano bang nakakatakot sa pagpunta sa doctor?! kala ko stupid ang reason nila na dahil daw ayaw nilang malaman na may sakit sila!

as a nursing student, we have to go through a lot of health test and vaccination, recently we've been obliged to have a PPD Test (Tuberculosis test), it's an intradermal injection... and ive gone through it twice na, the first was in our family doctor, positive daw ako, she gave me some antibiotics tapos six months medication... tapos pinaulit ko dito sa school hospital, kasi sabi ng classmates ko, kung positive ka, it doesn't mean that you have koch's disease, pwedeng na expose ka lang sa may TB! i'll be going back to the clinic today to know the results, and im really worried!

now i know exactly how they feel, nakakatakot nga, it's not because you're a coward or anything, but knowing that you have to live the rest of your life with limitations and you won't be able to do everything you want to do! just like i always say to my friends (as a joke), mas nakakatakot yung alam mo kung kelan ka mamamatay, kesa dun sa biglaan!

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fritzie blurted out...
8:52 AM